Chichester Drive

No words can beat a song.

2006-12-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

Scars are forever if one keeps peeling it while it's trying to heal.

2006-12-26T20:44:00.000+08:00

A Twist Of Fate.

Yes I know my title is a little too long. But I guess I really want to send out that message. My second entry of the day. Today I'm just in for words.

Everyone is changing. Honestly, I've changed drastically over the holidays. For good or bad, you judge. We just got to learn how to accept facts of life. I'm not sure if those issues on air are fully my fault. If they are, I'm ready to take full responsibility and face the consequences. Sometimes, they are not your fault and you're perpetually blamed for it. Can be rather upsetting. There are many kinds of characters in human that are already within them that it stays for life.

I just hope that '07 will be a better year where I can finally see the sun after many unknowning rainy days. Sometimes, we just got to stop putting a smile on our face. If you're nice, you deserve a better treatment. Goodnight.

Take good care of yourself when I'm not around(Love! Love!).

HO! HO! HO! Happy Kissmas!

2006-12-26T15:00:00.000+08:00

Well, how did I spend my Chritsmas? Like you know that's like on everyone's latest entry. I tell you, it's on Fel's blog, Rev's blog and many more. Of course I don't do blog hop but I do update myself with those close ones(AT TIMES!).

And so, Bebe, her sister, her parents went for Midnight Mass and I accompanied her. It was so packed that we had to stand. After that Bebe and I found ourselves at Pre-Rouge. We had the thickest cheese pizza ever! And we walked down to Catay Cineplex to watch DeathNote 2 at the GRAND CATAY! Wheee! It was my first time watching a movie there and I was given the best theatre.

Okay to those Jap fan, you might want to catch it but to me, the verdict of the story was expected and rather boring? Thanked God I didn't have that long to catch the 2nd part of the movie. DeathNote was release early November if I'm not wrong.

OH! I watched The Holiday with Bebe, Sal and her boyfriend on Saturday. It is indeed another great movie for Christmas. Last year was The Family Stone starring Rachel McAdams, SJP(Sarah Jessica Parker) and many more. Well, I can't wait for next year's Christmas already.

And on Christmas day, Bebe and I had dinner with her friends. We had dinner with Yu Zheng, Jiahui, Ashley and Serene at Changing Appetites, Marina Sq. The food quality dropped, the services was so slow but nevertheless, I did enjoy. Bebe was super crappy and lame. God knows why? But she did add on to the laughters on the table. At least last night, I could smile before I sleep.

It doesn't matter where you spent your Christmas at, what matters most is who was presence.
As for me, I had the best christmas for 2 years. Last year was one of the sweet years. Bebe surprised me(though I've alr know) with a new hp because my previous hp died on me! And I couldn't sleep the whole night because I was meddling with it. And this year, she gave me a COACH wallet. See, it is just getting better!

It is the time of the year where reflection takes in. Perhaps in a day or 2, I'll do my reflections. Too many events happened this year. Some, unfortunate? Some are just too sweet to forget.

PS: I know the picture is not relevant to my entry. SO?

I wish..

2006-12-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

I think I've been dreaming a lot lately. First, I want to be 30 yrs old as soon as possible. Why not? Okay, perhaps 28 yrs old is the MAX. I just want to quickly get a proper job, do well in my career and then study and explore round the world for life. Maybe at certain age, there's a different way of enjoying life. I don't want to settle down for a family for sure. Says who homosexuals can't get married?

Anyway, since my N's was my wake up call, I shall study harder next year. The geeky Rara is coming back. And I'm turning 17 soon. And it is my 5th year next year. I swear I'm just going to say I'm in my final year if they were to ask what I'm doing. Year 4 sounds okay but not for year 5. Quite weird to say it out. Perhaps it is because I'm not used to it. I bought my books today and I shall start mugging soon. Was so into Mathematics just now.

Oh yes, my birthday falls on a Tuesday. Just like 17 years ago. Hehe. And when I'm 18, just nice. I can join in for Mambo night at Zouk(: and finally going in LEGALLY.

I'll make you the best hot cocoa.

VAN! TROH! Meet up soon! Gonna miss my homotalk during recess! ):

PS: Here's something I must hear if I accidentally find myself at Zouk on Wednesday nights.

Christmas Shopping.

2006-12-20T01:48:00.000+08:00

The only thing that I want to complain is the RAIN! The last time I went for christmas shopping also rained. I'm like super pissed off with the rain. Just hope it won't rain tomorrow so that I can eat my sushi. Anyway, I bought Bebe her present and some presents for myself too! As you all can see, Bebe bought me a Coach wallet. Don't ask what I bought for her. It is 4 times cheaper! Anyway, I was walking in the rain non stop as usual from 1 building to another. This time, Vivo City comes in handy.

I bought Marks & Spencer undies!!(:
I think the sales girl recognise me. The last time I came was just last week when I bought 3 undies again too.

And tried my luck by going in Flash & Splash. Though I hate that shop but I don't know why I came out buying this! Good for tanning and it matches when I wear t-shirt and denim shorts.

On the other hand, Bebe was at Raffles City(LIAR! TOLD ME SHE O.T UNTIL 9 PLUS!) and bought me the wallet and a polo tee for her from Tommy Hilfiger!

After that I head down to her place to have dinner. (:
That's how my wet day ended.
Goodnights!

Why I love Christmas.

2006-12-20T01:28:00.000+08:00

Five steps to open your COACH Wallet.

C O A C H

My first Coach Wallet from Bebe!

I called it COCO.

And say good bye to Roxy. But she'll be back. What I love abt Roxy is that I can see Bebe in my wallet. Ohwells, out with the old and in with the new. Though COCO is not from my wishlist, I still love it!

THANK YOU BEBE!

Wishlist.

2006-12-19T15:13:00.000+08:00

You know, I didn't do well for my N's. Therefore I decided to drown myself with fashion websites. Okay, so far I've surfed Oakley and Coach. And since Christmas is coming, I shall try making myself happy by coming up with my own wishlist.

What I Want For Christmas This Year.

1) ~~More cute, pretty and sexy girl boxers or underwear from Marks & Spencer/ Women's secret/ Victoria's Secret(UK Size 8).~~

4) ~~School Books.~~

3) ~~Lamps but no space to put. I still have 1 lamp in a box~~(Don't see a need to get it).

4) Nice hair cut.

5) ~~Coach Signature Beaded Wristlet~~(Don't see a need to get it).

6) More wrapping papers and ribbons from Ikea/Paperchase/ Art Friend
(this makes a perfect gift for Christmas for me!!!!).

7) Gossips Girls(recommended by Rev though I've alr know abt it).

8) G Star, Levis and RL jeans & Vintage dress.

9) To lose more weight.

10) Stop raining for a day so that I can visit the giraffes in the zoological garden at Mandai.

YAY! I'll see you all next year in YEAR 5!

Oh ya, I hate the rain. Super annoying.

Spiders are art.

2006-12-18T01:25:00.000+08:00

Today, bebe and I caught a spider. It was roaming at my ceiling and we were on the bed watching it. Until we felt like it was going to my corner, we decided to catch it.

AndyPandy sent me this and I thought of sharing it with you. I swear I will not do that to my ipod man!

Today's theme.

2006-12-16T15:09:00.000+08:00

Sometimes..

2006-12-16T11:18:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, some things are just not meant to be yours.
... it is time to let go after having it for quite some time.
... there are some things cannot be kept to you forever.
... you wonder if you're making the right decision.

Once made, you either

Make it or Break it.

Sometimes, you wonder if you should give up after going through all the hurdles.
Sometimes, these things gives you sleepless nights.

I wonder..
Upon hearing You Are Loved by Josh Groban repeatedly, I really don't want to give up after what we've both gone through.
At times I wonder if I'm forcing her to stay for my own needs.
Yes, I need her.

I don't know what to respond every time she gives me those on and off cold treatment.
When darkness falls, I have to be prepared.
At most times, I end up ending my day in tears.
But I'm asking for it.
I ought not to complain.

Should I ever go anytime, I just want to apologise to Her and everyone for being such a burden in your life. I've regreted for commiting those mistakes and tried to turn change.

But God didn't allow me.
While I'm here trying to change, big challenges ahead.

Today's msg: Once yours, treasure it. But don't hold on to it too tightly.

(I don't even know if I'm holding on to it too tight.)

Good day everyone.

Girls.. girls..

2006-12-14T18:59:00.000+08:00

We met up for lunch. Then all of us went separate ways. I? I decided to drop by town for awhile for a Christmas shopping. Everyone was shopping for Christmas too. Walked and walked and walked to look for Revathi a present. She is so skinny that I couldn't find her size. There were so many nice punk rock pieces that I wanted to buy. All are of her favourite colour(currently). But there was no size for her. At last, I found something close to those punk rockers. I just hope Revathi will like it. It took me hours to find the perfect gift. I was dashing across the road from one building to another soaked in wet with my birkenstock feeling cocky. So I hoped she'll like it. She better wear it!!!

Reporting on Rara's health.
I am dying I tell you. Seriously, dying. Revathi was sick today too. Her performance is tomorrow. All the best Babe! She could tell that I was sick too. I've been having dry cough and flu and my liver hurts. Not only that today, I came home feeling nauseous and vomitted the pizza we had. Yesterday, it was goodbye to Ice Cream and Fried Rice. Today, it was goodbye to Pizza.

Ps: Visit me in my Kovan house. Apt Blk 170, Ward #02-1485, Corner room.

That's why I'm home early from town. I'm sick!

We are...

2006-12-13T16:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I just hate being a woman.
Seriously, I'm just someone stucked in a woman's body and was forced to act like a woman.
Why do woman have PMS?
I swear it is killing me. Sometimes, I just wish I don't have to go through all these.
After PMS, menopause. Oh man.. What's next?

At home, my mom is killing me.
In my corner, my body and emotions are killing me.
Oh gosh..

Anyway, this weekend is going to be a busy weekend for me.
Bebe and I are going JB on Friday then head down to Gas Haus for Rev's performance.
I'm sure it is going to be another wonderful weekend with Bebe.

Today is the 13th of December, 2006.

That means 5 more days to RESULTS!
I can't wait to see my friends and of course I don't wish to see my results slip.

Pls baby, pls call me and ask how is it?
And if you're going to see me, bring a pack of tissue and cellphone.
I might jump off the school building if I flunk!

WISH US ALL LUCK!

Back from Voyage!

2006-12-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

HELLO! I'm back!!! Had great time there. I went kayaking and parasailing. Played with the monkey. Sunburnt! Seriously red nose. Love the weather and the people. And now I can strike out travelling after my N level. Thanks Bebe!! This is definitely one of the best present ever. The next time we're going to Batam, we're going for the cable ski.

To kepo around my trip:

click here.

She's the best!

2006-12-09T00:12:00.000+08:00

I was really depressed today. In face since last night.
And today, I got cheated by my uncle who initially promised me to drive me to Adam Hospital to visit Ren.
I cried the whole day.
Anyway, I told Bebe I was crying and she called me and took the initiative to fetch me home from Kerrisdale.
And guess what? I was at the pool waiting for her sitting on the bench and she came with ROO!
Seeing her and Roo just enlighten my day. (:
And then we walked to Mustafa and bought my rabbit food plus few other stuff.
I felt so much better when I end my day with her by my side.
Now, my sleeping children are Teddy, Moo Moo and Roo!

Bebe, you've been the sweetest of all and I hoped you like the lacoste towel. I know getting a towel is so random. haha. I Love Roo, of course!! Thank you so much for brightening up my darkest day. Thank you so much for Roo.

*Imported from UK. Currently, Roo's feeling really dizzy because of the bumpy ride.

Sometimes, to move forward, you need to take a few steps backwards.

To become a better man.

Reflections.

2006-12-08T01:54:00.000+08:00

Why I love my bebe so much?

For the past few weeks I've been reading my personal diary.
And today, I've decided to read her blog.
When I read those entries I wrote while I was at Kerrisdale all alone, I felt so bad.
I teared with full of regrets. I was so selfish to myself.
Wanted everything to my own needs.
At that time, I couldn't feel her love until we broke up. It was true what people said.
You will only treasure that person when you've lost him/her.
Bebe has played an important role in my life.
Every night I would tear out of sorrows during that 3 months of being single.
I became vulnerable when I was alone. I know that she wanted me back but I just couldn't bring myself to be with her.
I took pills like nobody's business.
Smoked secretly.
Drinked in the middle of the night.
I almost lost her. It was only then I decided to wake up.
It was really late, I guess.
I crave for her presence every night. Ego me. I didn't contact her and chose to ignore her.
She helped me in many ways.

I love bebe because she is always there for me.
When I had bad times with my family, she held a helping hand.
She would listen to all my pain.
She would buy me my favourite food especially when I crave for them.
I still remember, she went to J8, Bishan to get pop corns so that we could watch Notebook at home.
But I got so pissed when she said that she won't be staying over. And we end up not eating the pop corns and argued.
That was my biggest mistake made.

I love bebe because she is the sweetest person ever.
She will try means and ways to make me happy.
One time I lost my wallet in the cab and she bought me a wallet with a cookie to cheer me up.
And I'm still using it. She calmed me down when I had a big fight at Orchard Hotel with that Algae.
But we end up having great time after Algae left.
That's because she was there for me.

She came down all the way from NTU to look after me the whole night when I was having high fever because I had a major paper the next day.
The sweetest thing ever was that she was studying while I was in bed and she ordered MacDonald's breakfast before taking her nap. And she even cooked for me salmon scallop porridge the next day.
She will always support whatever decision I made.
When I told her I wanted to be a pharmacist, she was happy for me.

The cutest thing was when we bought each other crumpler bag for Valentine's and she made a book for me(101 things why I love you). Every night, I would read a line before heading to bed.
And released helium balloons at Raffles The Plaza Hotel, Alligator Pool.
She tries to spice up this r/s by bringing me to Batam for our 18th month this Sat.
She always come over my place without complaining though there's a bitch in the hse.
She will satisfy my needs.

08.12.05

Bebe brought me to watch Snow Queen at esplanade and we went party at Zouk. She suprised me la!

During those 3 months, I abandoned her.
I left her.
I made her cry for many nights.
Made her waited for me.

Sometimes, it is just too late.
Now that I'm awake and try to make up for all those horrible nights, she can't love me as much as she did.
I'm sorry baby.

Happy 18th Month.

I Love You And Always Will.

Goodnight and off to shower then concuss.

Far too much to say.

2006-12-07T15:58:00.000+08:00

Now that we're only left with Christmas to celebrate, I better cherish every moment spent on Earth before I hit '07. I still miss last year's December. However, I always believe that there will better December(s) ahead. And so I will do the craziest things ever this December.

11 more days to results. I'm getting nervous and all.
But happy me, I got my scholarship again! (:
I am definitely going to attend this year because it
will be the last time I'm going to do well in school.
I know I've been such a bitch since year 1.

Wanna know why?:

Year1, I exaggerated my gastric flu and said that I couldn't walk. Therefore, I didn't attend.

Year2, no one was interested and wasn't really happy for me and I overslept, sick and had gastric again. Therefore, I didn't attend.

Year3, Bebe said that she would come and support me and Mommy would take a few sec from work to see me go up the stage. I didn't have gastric but I was late. And they excused me. AND BEBE saw me going up and shaked his hand! No gastric that year.

Year4, will be a marvellous one! Bebe is coming!(you're invited)

Alright. Off to shower. Till then.

Algae is your worse enermy.

2006-12-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

BITCH OF THE YEAR!

Must be wondering who it is right?
Well it is none other than my one and only "beloved" sister. HAHAHA.
She enjoys talking to herself thinking that I care about whatever fuck she says.
She is the worse idiot ever!
She thinks I am jealous of her. What fuck? I wish she dies in a plane crash.
If her flight has no. 4, she is going to die on a plane crash!
Then I don't have to face her aymore.
Please la, she got into SIA because of my first sister.
You think SIA want to hire such BITCH?
I am going to make sure she cries.
SHE'LL DIE AND I CAN'T WAIT.
Call me evil for all I care.

Video for room 212

2006-12-05T16:00:00.000+08:00

Never underestimate.

2006-12-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you wonder if that person really appreciate and will always remember words he said long time ago.
When liberated, always take advantages.
Human's biggest mistake.
We all make mistakes and that makes us a human.
But ever wonder how many times you commit the same mistake.
Can be disappointing at times but we've got to learn how to accept it.
Today, I decided to take note every mistake I have and vow to myself not to commit it again.

Lesson learnt: Be cautious of what you're doing, you might not know that it might hurt others unknowingly.

Peace Upon You.

Never trust the person sleeping beside you.

2006-12-04T00:14:00.000+08:00

Don't trust. She can act all her life but she cannot hide with God. From Dislike, it becomes Hate. Over the years I watch her doing her dirty little tricks. Just too bad that she started rolling the dices and called me for a game. Now, she can't quit. I don't hold grudges but because it has been happening again and again and she is perpetually ruining my life ever since I was 5 years old.

And it is only her that I can't forgive. I wash your underwears and you think I'm going to continue? I am now washing my own clothes. You are worse of than a Satan.

One day, karma will get you and that's when I will sit on my couch and watch my toes laughing at you. Bitch!

You are now not only on my blacklist but my wishlist too. Watch out.
Worse sister ever. She is a backstabber. She is infamously known for being such an award winning actress but of course, not up to my standard.

New Majestic Hotel.

2006-12-03T00:47:00.000+08:00

I brought baby to New Majestic Hotel at Bt Pasoh Rd on the 1st of December. It is the little bro. of 1929 Hotel. Yupps, we're like sleeping in a museum. Each room is specially designed by artists from S'pore. And lucky us, we got the private garden! Our room is called Memory, room 212.

Sneak peep. For more peeping, click here!

My favourite chair! And I think Bebe likes it too. (:

The room is almost covered with all mirrors.

And the Artist painted this. The ceiling on top of our bed.

The toilet. The small tiles are just so beautiful!

I hate Sundays.

2006-11-26T15:51:00.000+08:00

Today, I'm just bored and I have no idea what to do. Wanted to play The Sims but no mood and I don't play their daily routine like wake up, eat, read book and bla bla. It's getting boring and Makin' Magic is only for the primary enthusiatic kids. I'm not in for it. But I shall show you my house one day. That's if I start playing again.

I can't wait for time to fly then I can get out of the house. It is bitching me already. Okay, sudden cravings for pastries from Prego.
After a few months, we just found out that Tinkerbell is a male. I think I've already mentioned before. We are still aren't aware of her gender. But now it's for sure that Tinkerbell is a male. So since we're so used to calling him Tinkerbell, shall stick to it. Hmmm.. That's weird. A male rabbit with a female name.

Anyway, the Vet told us that Pepe is a female. Now, Tinky is very protective of his wife when at first, we all thought that he's a very good sister. Aiye.. Lots to say about Tinkerbell but shall not reveal before everyone has bad reputation of him. For those who are thinking of... Yes it's true. Pepe is still young and can't be a mother. Get it?

It is worth it.

2006-11-26T12:40:00.000+08:00

On Friday, Bebe and I went to watch Happy Feet. I was funny la! You know, I don't watch cartoon movies and so far, the only ones that made me really laugh is Madagascar and Happy Feet. The story plot was indeed unexpected. I mean who knows what is Happy Feet actually?

For those who already read the synopsis, okay just pretend like you didn't. haha.

I rate it 3.97 stars!! So, what are you all waiting for? GO WATCH IT!

Anyway, finally, Bebe bought me that cow!! Her name is Moo Moo. DOB: 24. 11. 06

My long lost twin sister?

2006-11-24T14:20:00.000+08:00

Griselda took this picture when she was in the library because she thought it was ME. My hair is so short! Now can it be? I tried taking pictures of myself looking down[same position as her] but I looked really ugly. Anyway, if you think you've seen her before, let me know. Maybe she does look like me. Griselda thinks she's HOT. Like she's so mesmerised by her.

My cravings.

2006-11-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

Everyone? Got that? YA! I miss eating salmon!!

My Lunch With My Bestfriend.

2006-11-21T22:36:00.000+08:00

Hello!! Yes, Revathi came over. Unfortunately it was unprofessional of me to promise her that I would cook for her when my time management was bad! So we ordered MacDonald's and had lunch in my room. I asked her to dye my hair while I work on her blog and tada! I manage to finish up her blog after working on it for 3 strenuous days!

Pepe, my siamese cat look alike was so comfortable with Rev and listened to her commands. She sat beside her and lie on the cushion. Was so loving but of course, I didn't think of taking a picture of it.

Tomorrow, I'm going out with the twins. tralala!

Thank you Rev for coming all the way.

Another Stupendous Weekend!

2006-11-19T14:55:00.000+08:00

WE WENT TO VIVO CITY!

We went to Vivo City to watch Material Girls. Let me see, I rate the movie as 2.95 stars out of 5? I still think that Lindsay can act better than Hilary and Hayley can act better than Hilary but not as good as Lindsay. Okay, I think I'm too long winded. Anyway, Vivo City is pack as usual. It was only my 2nd visit there and I can predict already. What is everyone doing over there?? A real family gathering place.

After that we head down to Bar Empire at Neil Road and yes I am promoting this place. I'm afraid is for all girls only. haha. If you see a red balcony by the rooftop, that's the place. 4th floor near a small car park. Do drop by on the 1st of December. Till then Shalala!!

My bestfriend, Revathi

2006-11-18T16:26:00.000+08:00

At first, it was four.

Now?

I'm kind of proud of my friendship with Rev. Yes I know we didn't talk for months but you know after all, she's the one who has been standing by me. At times, I can't stand her that I don't even feel like sitting. At times, I'm just grateful.

The one who has been doing the craziest things with me.
The one who has seen me cry & comfort me.
The one who would have sleep overs and all.
The one who would eat my disgusting egg that I made for her for breakfast while walking to school, sec 1.
The one who bought me a barbie doll that I wanted for my birthday when I was 11 years old.

We met in XPS at maths remedial in 1999. We weren't even classmates that time.
She would teach me how to ride a bike. hehe. She's very patient with me okay!
She saw me fell on my bump down the slope on my blades.
She would bring me to her house for medication when I fell at the long kang near Parry Ave.
She dyed my hair last year.
She witnessed my naval piercing this year.

Where to find such friend?

Bestfriends for 7 years and still going on strong. She would call me once in a while or even drop by my place. Recently I called her for lunch and soon, she's coming over my place. Hey! I'm cooking for lunch okay?

I'm just so scared that 10 years down the road, I see my school mates and they ignore me or we just forgot that we actually know each other. The good times we spent dreaming and doing things that we never thought we could do. As we grow older, we're just separating. Everyone has their own priority of friends.

Where do I stand in yours?

Action only when tragedy happens.

2006-11-13T23:15:00.000+08:00

Today, bebe and I brought baby Pepe to the vet. First, we didn't make any appointment and we had to wait super long though we were 2nd.

And so the bill was $60.90. Pepe's fine. She just need to eat more and perhaps watch on her urine. This is indeed another expensive rabbit. But I felt really healthy for the bunnies. Tinkerbell looks better now and Pepe is looking more happy!

I miss my lembeh now and of course, all the best for your killer report! (:

It is worth it.

2006-11-12T23:25:00.000+08:00

See, every time I end my previous entry with a sad one, I'll come back with a HAPPY one! (:

This weekend has a blast.
My baby and I drove my uncle's Lexus GS300! wahahaha. Yes, it is an auto car! Honestly it was my first attempt to drive an auto car. It all started out with me and my crazy ideas. Since my uncle is not around, why not right? I started the car and move out of the lot but of course my baby had to continue the journey. We played around the car park until we realise that we are having BIG trouble. How to park the car back?

After many attempts, 2 men came and bebe seeked for help. Two unlicensed kids! Okay, one with bike license and the other none. Of course, I am the NONE! One of the guy helped us park and we're saved!

And then the next day, we had dinner at Sizzler.
Thank you so much bebe.

Every Storm Ends With A Beautiful Rainbow.

And it did. *winks!

Sigh.

2006-11-10T18:01:00.001+08:00

I've been crying for the past 1 hour and still don't feel any better.

What have I done to deserve that kind of treatment?

Sometimes I really wonder.. what she really want.

I've been losing energy and what more. I'm not exactly well.

I'll just tolerate because I don't want to lose such an endearing person.

Another random thoughts.

2006-11-10T12:37:00.000+08:00

It pays to be patient

I think.

Maybe it does. Yesterday was a shocked. I think I was THIS CLOSE to go mad. Since I've got nothing to rush for and I have all the time in the world, I shall tolerate and be patient to those who really need them. Ain't an easy task though but it is worth trying. And if I've succeeded then I am something out of nothing. perhaps fire and fire just make the fire BIGGER! It was indeed horrible of me not being the water yesterday. But still? Everyone plays a part you know!

I know I'm suppose to do a research abt Capetown last week but I've decided to research on these places of attraction only once a month. I am too lazy to click and read. I'd rather read a book which I've not chosen at all for my holiday than to read it from the screen!! I've been pretty much enjoy the boring life I have. Everyday is like another boring day for me. The only time I am looking forward to, is evening time where I get to see bebe. Apart from that.. Let me see, I wake up and surf the net until evening time. Exciting right?

And so today is just another boring day for me. I've decided to surf around fashion websites and start drooling on their collections. Well, I saw that Coach wallet yesterday at the boutique but shit me! Short of $10! *faints* It was $249!! Sigh.. I have to wait until my next allowance before I can step in that boutique again if I ever think it is worth buying.

Anyway, wanted to see around the other boutiques but I'm not a LV, Chanel, Gucci, Christian Dior, Fendi and more kind of person. The only extreme brand I am crazy for is Jimmy Choo!!!! But I don't really appreciate heels unless I have a proper shoe wardrobe. I just love observing the sparkling diamonds. And of course if luck strikes upon me, love to buy it but not worth it until I'm much older.

I am definitely not materialistic but I enjoy seeing things that are not so pretty and yet people are dying to get them. I am not a die heart fan of Coach. It is just pretty and I went for Chloe's bag instead of that small wallet from Coach yesterday. See, I am not that rich to buy these goods anytime I want. I'll just be contented with what I have like that old UCB and Jane Smith which i can't put much things. And so my new Chloe can hold up my cardigan, hp, wallet, ipod and camera. These are my essential needs.

My next interest is on perfumes. Much cheaper because they come in all types of sizes. Then again.. I've alr collected bottles from all over my house(that includes my first sister's collections). I used to go around and tell my family members that if they are done with the perfume bottle, please donate it to me. HAHA. But apparently, they too love them. So I just display what's mine.

Collecting shoes used to be my hobby until someone had to keep using my shoes. And then I gave up and almost collected birkies. But why do you need so many pairs of the same kind? I just buy those designs are easy to match with anything.

Sigh.. I give up. So what's your favourite fashion collection? I know for some reason, many people love buying dunks, sneakers, heels and more.

8 Fashion websites you can't miss:
1. www.coach.com
(for their bags & accessories)

2. www.chloe.com
(for the new fashion padlock tote)

3. www.mambo.com.au
(for handsome polo tees)

4. http://www.paulfrank.com/startpage.html
(for cute wallets/bags)

5. http://www.juicycouture.com/
(may not heard of it but it is coming up in Singapore!)

6. www.jimmychoo.com
(for pretty shoes/hangbags)
But if you can't afford. The closest is Nine West.

7. www.mulberry.com
(for nice bags/wallets & more)

8. www.fredperry.com
(ya.. it's very popular now)

I guess the rest are alr popular. Like Gap, Pull & Bear and more.

I think I'm bringing my holga baby out to Kerrisdale. I also want to finish up my film and see how it turns out. For now, it is only 4 pictures taken. HAHA. And oh Felly, thanks for the tinkerbell necklace but I want a cheap cute and small moo moo. hahaha. That necklace is too expensive!

Okay. Resting time for me before I hit to the other house.

Far from worse.

2006-11-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

Were you trying to be psychic?

I wish I didn't have such a life.

Today is another bad luck day for me. First, I fell ill and didn't get to enjoy my outing and secondly I got chased away(indirectly & directly). Firstly, chased by the love of my life, my gf and then Algae. See, when I'm sick, everyone just want to get rid of you. I'm slowly watch my temperature rising from 38.1 to 38.4. It is not getting any better.

She told me to call my close friends if I want to talk. Okay, I wish I can say fuck but I'm just too tired. I decided to write my blog instead of bothering more people. In this case, I won't bother anyone. It is like she can predict that she's going to get irritated today. Now, read the first line of my entry.

I wish I had a better life. I'm already so sick and people around me just can't try to be nice. I'm not using sick as an excuse but seriously, if you want something, you've got to be nice and tell the reason. She probably think I'm some whinner. I don't know but I'm truly hurt. I think she enjoys being treated like that. What have I done to deserve that chase?

I'm just so hurt and sick. For now, I feel that God's unfair. I brought a soul closer to you and you made her treat me like this. I know she's stress but I've been very understanding for the past few days and even let her do her hobbies(if that's what you call).

Anyway, bought a bag. Crazy me. It's from Chloe. For more bags from her, www.chloe.com
But I tell you it cost a bomb!

Original price is £709.54 but I got it at S$198 after discount. What is the original price man? Of course, mine is dark brown but apparently it looks like the black one.

Anyway, I am still hurt.

Postopia Dot Com

2006-11-03T01:03:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday, after going to church with bebe, we both decided to hit the supermarket at Toa Payoh. And Oreo's O was one of the picked out food. Then today when I was munching on them, I saw this "Use Postokens to unlock rewards on: Postopia.Com [code inside]. So, thanks to my curiosity, I went to open up the box and then saw the code. I click onto www.Postopia.com and walah!

The only game that caught my eye was Big Mouth Life. You have to play games and entertain this mouth. After playing, you can buy accessories. Of course, I dress mine like a Diva. haha.

And here's my big mouth flossing. I made her wear braces. haaha!!

Hmmm?

2006-11-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

I don't know if I feel like blogging but anyway, hello.

I'll just blog.

I'm having dry cough after the haze has gone down... What more can I ask?
I think this week is the most busy week for me. With my friends and all. Everyday is a no-no stay at home. Finally, I'm making a full use of my holiday.

Okay bebe, don't say that I don't want it.

I WANT TO GO TO THE ZOO!!

DONE!

2006-10-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I asked her if she could accompany me.

Yupps, she did! Felt super nervous that it rubbed onto Revathi.
But by the time the guy was about to pierce, I was already alright and Rev was the nervous one.
As she witness the procedure, I slowly wonder.. Why Am I Doing This?
Honestly, that reason abt my family is bullshit. I'm doing this because it was my dream ever since I was in year2. My model friend, Rev is convinced that it does not hurt!
I'm definitely aiming on the stud with the star filled with crystals.

6 more weeks and I can change my stud!! However, I'm contented with the current one. Plain and simple. No sakae, Vilage and steamboat. Ohwells, no pain, no gain!!

I had wonderful time with Rev. The funny thing is that we couldn't stop talking and we didn't feel bored with each other's company. I realised that we enjoy sitting down at cafes and drink. Walking around town is probably very tiring. Although we didn't talk for months, we were still able to connect. It was really sweet of her to do crazy things with me. Last year, she coloured my hair and this year, she accompanied me to pierce my naval. See, bestfriends are the sweetest.

7 kissessss!!

Fly me to Rome.

2006-10-29T17:43:00.000+08:00

The Vatican City.

I was rather bored and decided to search on churches in Rome. I'm just going to write another nothing to-do entry before I accompany bebe to church. Well, I'm definitely amazed by the architect structure. For some reason, the paintings are breath taking. My sister went there once though. It was ravishing of course.

The upcoming church. Modern indeed.

The famous Colosseum.
There's a movie that you can watch, The Gladiator.

One of the magnificent churches in Rome. Just look at the details! I wonder if there's any mistakes!! haha.

St. Peter Church in Rome.

Now, this is very popular. Vittoriano Church.

Apart from the beautiful churches in Rome, of course Rome is also known for many more other attractions like...

Trevi Fountain. This found is also known for pickpockets. I'm serious!! The teenagers are very daring. And they are girls, most of the time! Okay, apart from that you toss a coin and make a wish. I'm not sure if it'll come true but for sure, this fountain is very rich.

Friend of Gsutley. May your dream come true!

Pretty huh?

I can't remember what's the name of this structure but there's a similar one in Paris, France.
Anyway, in the oldern days, the poorer citizen were not be allowed to walk under the arc. That's all that I know. My knownledge is ain't that wide! haha. But the rich and those riding with horse are allowed. Wonder why...?

They are so old and still standing strong. Amazing!

See, I told you the ceiling is stunning!

Rome's favourite transporter.

Alright papa. I've done my homework.
Can I pack my bag now? And we fly there?? Please!!

Next destination which I will bring you to is.. Capetown, South Africa!
Haha. My sister's flying there soon. That's why. I'm not the one going you know?
A quick peek!

Waterfront, Cape Town.

Announcing my mission.

2006-10-29T04:03:00.000+08:00

The beautiful world will always remain beautiful.

After giving myself some thoughts, I've decided to pierce my naval instead of at the back of my neck. This is my holiday surprise. Last year, my hair lost its virginity to hair dye. This year, I'm piercing it. Can't do tattooes can't I? And so, piercing is a form of sadness and anger instead of doing body art. I'm doing this for my family.

Forget the pain once I get used to my naval. As in, once the wound has healed. And so, forget the pain that my family has brought me into and get used to it. Yupps. I'm going to do it and if possible, AS SOON AS I CAN!

I know I'm blogging at 4a.m. I'm just biting out my time. Alright. Calling bebe to say Goodnight.
Good morning to ya all. Wish me luck. It is just so sad that I can't do tattooes.

Ohwells..

Open thoughts.

2006-10-29T00:48:00.000+08:00

The only weekend that I finally get to escape.

I spent my Friday night and the whole of Saturday with Bebe. First stop, we booked a hotel to have a little getaway. It was just behind the Singapore Art Museum(SAM). At first, it freaked me out but I got a little comfortable after that when Bebe arrived after work.

We were craving for french fries at 11 plus and walked down to Parco Bugis just to purchase 1 large french fries, 1 large coke and apple dippers(Woot! My favourite). And drank screwdriver and vodka coke to get ourselves high but bebe end up having the red face!! hehe. We played drinking games to challenge ourselves. Apparently, luck wasn't on my side. It's okay. I can hold my liqour better than BEBE! HAH!

The next day, we went to drop by SAM because it just behind it and we found ouselves amazed by the Art Pieces. I know it is rather rude of me to take pictures of them but I couldn't resist!

Then, we went to the unfinished National Art Museum which is down the road. The entrance was rather pretty but I prefer those at church. Magnificent, I tell you. I love churches in Rome. Awesomely beautiful and you look up to the ceiling. You'll feel your throat dried up because when you look up, you can't close your mouth. Stories being told through vision.

Then we walked to Fort Canning Park and saw a tombstone who has the same name as my bebe's nick name. Rest in Peace. We took a picture of it after asking for permission but deleted after several hours. We found ourselves at Plaza Singapura to catch a movie, The Prestige. Ooh la la...! 4.5 Stars. Do watch it as you fall deeply for the magical tricks one after another. The thing is, if you think you're smarter, think again. It is better to have plan B on your left hand. Sounds like Light(from Death Note).

After the movie, we went to Gardens and saw Holly and Marcus. Well, whisky, if you're reading this, she's not working at Borders okay? Couldn't get it. She's working at Sitcky Rice. Haha.

Headed home and it's time to face reality. Fun time is over. Pooh!

Pictures to Share.

The SAM.

The magnificent ceiling to the National Museum which is unfinished. haha.

Okay, the sad thoughts of mine. Care to read if interested.
At this point, you can have the choice of not reading my entry. It's pretty boring I should say.

Let me see, the thought of going home just sickens me. I feel no peace and can never be found.

I made an effort to make my mini corner, my comfort zone. As you can see, I spend 98% of my time at home here.

Fighting for your rights are used elsewhere.

I fear for my future.

Endless sleepless night.

All I want is to have the one I love most to be by my side.

Silence is fine. It is the presence that I'm concern.

Was rather tired and decided to go home and indulge in my mini corner to see if I can find activities to do. I guess blogging is the only way I can open myself apart from building houses in Sims.

Money can't buy happiness.

"I use my money to make people come over or I should say accompany me."

Find them rather annoying. I don't practise that though at times I was desperate for companion.

Ohwells, that's life.

Iether you accept it or live by your own.

God's fair you know? There are ppl worse off.

Happy 23rd Birthday Sweetheart (:

2006-10-27T00:30:00.000+08:00

Hola!
Today is probably the only day that I was dying to get over with. My bebe's birthday!
We dined at Mezza 9, Grand Hyatt Hotel. And as usual, she's late again!! Haha. It is the same every year.

We had the famous Seafood Fried Rice and the Mud Crab. What's Black Pepper Mud Crab? They are crabs from Sri Lanka. When we were served, it just reminded me of us eating crab at ECP. We were all sweating while eating the finger licking chilli crab. Yaa-moo!

Then, I had a surprise for her. I came early to the hotel and planned with one of the girls. That is to surprise her with a birthday cake. And so, after eating the main course, she wanted me to call for the bills but I was trying to hold her back.

The cake took very long and I whispered to one of the waiter to remind him. Apparently, she kinda caught me. But after all, it was all a happy ending. Finally right? I think she was surprised??!

Well bebe, I'm glad you had a great time. Though the present didn't come together with the dinner, but I hoped it was a pleasant dinner at Hyatt. See you tomorrow at Oxford Hotel. Muacks!

though my family & 220.255.228.114 pissed me off, I shouldn't let it ruin my day.

8 kisses!!

Birthday Wish to bebe.

2006-10-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY BEBE!

May you have a successful life ahead.

I love you and I hope you'll have a great time later at Hyatt. (:

lots of love,

fara

I'm in love once again...

2006-10-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

Our hands fit
into each other so perfectly.
when connected our hearts
beat in unison together as one
soul.
When we can feel each other
heartbeat,
that is the sound of our love.
i love you baby.

Today, I know I'm suppose to celebrate Hari Raya but you know, I don't keep that a habit since young. I end up playing theSims. After building a house for Eve and Eva(which is suppose to be Bebe & Me), I decided to make them into homosexual cohabiting. WHAHAHA. 1 room only. I wanted to put bebe and me orginally but I thought hmm.. Which character am I suppose to create for bebe?

Bebe, together we can make it through. Bad times don't stay long for good. It will only make us stronger. *I can't wait for your birthday dinner & Oxford! *winks (:

I love the way you love me.

Endlessly sweet.

Indulge in peace.

2006-10-23T17:02:00.000+08:00

Today I decided to spend my day in my room. I slept at 7 a.m doing midnight cleaning. If wouldn't for the new furniture, I don't really have to bother cleaning my room because it is rather quite consistent. Thanks to the new furniture, I have to shift my computer table to my room. So, extra big table in my room made me want to clean my room. I had to redo all the wirings and I am going to throw away that rusty table. Take charge.

I woke up at 3p.m. and watched L word in my room (on my bed). I might want to clean the rabbit's cage later since it's Monday and poor Tinkerbell. She can't stand her own pee. haha. She wanted to spend the whole night in my room with the air con on her favourite cushion. Cheeky bunny. I don't know what went through my mind buying those cushions for cats/dogs. Why would somebody want to buy it for a bunny?But she's a very tame rabbit. (:

After that, I took out a box which is suppose to be my holiday activity. But I'm waiting for Whisky's return from Ozzie. I've not use it actually. Kinda took 5 pictures only. Whahaha. How hobbitic I am. So ambitious. *tsk*

I belong to me... I wish!

2006-10-22T12:55:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah

It's not that I dont wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I dont want to have you in my life baby
it's just you gotta know that its got to be right baby
before I open up my heart to you
I dont need somebody to complete me

I complete myself
nobody has got to belong to somebody else
I belong to me
I don't belong to you my heart is my posession
I'll be my own reflection I belong to me
I'm one not half of two and if you're gonna love me
you should know this baby I belong to me

Seriously, I wish I can have her strengths. Women are killers.
Worse of all.. I see them everywhere. Is n0t that I don't like them but I can't stand their PMS.
Bestfriends, girlfriend(s), mothers, sisters.. AIYO! Save me.

Human Beings are the worse creature ever.

Random thoughts.

2006-10-22T12:30:00.000+08:00

This is definitely going to be one of my random entry. Well, it always start of as 'random' but slowly, I'll get the hand of it and start my nonsense. HAHA.

We went to catch the Death Note yesterday and I thought the plot was quite good. For most people, the ending was unexpected. But as for me, I feel that he's smart enough to plan everything. Let's just say killing is addictive. That's why there are more serial killer.

My room is beginning to look like a junk now. Everthing is in my room. Water? It just at my 2 o'clock. Food? Nope. I don't eat. Well.. It is more likely essential items are around my room.

Okay fine. I'm upset & hurt. That's why I'm writing nonsense to entertain myself. Pooh!
Life's so unfair. There's more downs than ups. Girls with menstruation is fine but tgt with PMS! My God! It is a killer! BIG TIME!

I WAS virgin to gigs.

2006-10-22T02:10:00.000+08:00

We went to watch Lady Alaska performed at the gas Haus. Honestly, if wouldn't for them. I doubt I want to attend. It was the first time Char and I actually go to a gig. My God. I had never really seen wild boys moshing in sweats. Definitely have to skip that. Anyway, we went to Fish & Co. and ordered osyters and seafood platter. Thanks to Rev, we had to packed out seafood platter and eat out oysters. My.. My.. That was the fastest meal ever at Fish & Co.

We got in with all the ppl in black t-shirts. Seriously no life. Char and I were one of those standing out with white tops. HAHA. Out favourite t-shirt colour. Duh.. And so, here are the pictures that you all might want to view. (:

'Cause you and I can make it better.
Would be better if it's everyday that we try.

What a day..

2006-10-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

I thought I could end my day well. But no.. It was a happy ending.
Ohwells, it's for the princessesssss. I get it, okay?
And so I spent my day with my schoolmates.
I accompanied Edmund to his interview at Forever 21.
Then we head down to town and meet up the girls.
Okay, the interview's at Vivo City. Who have gone there??

ME!

I wasn't amazed honestly. In fact I felt unusual though it was a compressed version of Orchard Road but so what?
No kick when you don't run from one building to another or see the cars on the road passing through the belt of malls.
We went to food republic. Please, the moment Edmund entered, he was mesmerised by the drooling laksa.
After walking a few rounds, we decided to settle down at food republic. We had hokkien mee each. Which cost us $4 and we shared a bowl of delicious laksa, $6.90.
Now, you readers think that we're mad to eat such an expensive laksa.
You are all wrong! This is the best laksa ever.
To me, it is the 2nd best on my laksa list.
Whisky and I are laksa freaks you see. The one at Lucky plaza, nuh.. 3rd now.

To keep it short, I shall post pictures to tell you the magnificent view from the roof top.

Left for good.

2006-10-17T11:52:00.000+08:00

Peter Pan(3 months old on the 11th of Sept) left for Neverland today.

My sister woke me up before she left for school. She told me that Peter Pan was feeling very weak. I got out of the bed and took Peter Pan in my arms covered with a towel. It was only 8.03a.m. that time. I brought him to my bedroom and he was falling asleep. He tried to hop a little.

He hopped about 1m away from where he was stationed and he was waiting for me to carry me alr. I gave him water but refused to drink neither eat. I quickly went online searching for the nearest Vet. Thanks to Nunu and Bebe, they directed me to S'goon North Ave 2 to Mount Pleasant Clinic for animals.

By the time I was searching around, Peter Pan's head was feeling really heavy and he wants to sleep. He wanted to sleep badly. I shut my hp so that he won't hear any beepings. I got ready by 10a.m and took a cab to S'goon North. And he was feeling really stiff. His limbs were tgt. His eyes were half opened. I know chances of him surviving this is very low.

The Moment I enter the clinic, the receptionist stared at me. He quickly send him to the room. I waited patiently outside and he came out telling me," Your rabbit is dead.." He was in there not more than 1 minture. Then he sent me to the vet and I looked at him.

I tried to control my tears. He left for heaven 1/2 an hour before I reached the clinic. I stayed at the clinic a little while longer to learn more. Chances of death due to shredded newspapers[thanks to you-know-who] or perhaps he was too shocked by I don't know what. Anyway, she wanted to wrap him but I told her that I want to bring him home and wrap him with cotton and bury him myself. There's cremation but a little too expensive.

My aunt called me and told me to wrap him with cotton and put him in a nice box and write wishes to him. I'll wait for bebe to knock off from work to do that. Meanwhile, I'll look for a nice box and add some ribbons and colourful papers and some wishes inside.

Due to respecting Peter Pan, I'm not taking any pictures of him lying under the towel. After that, I shall send him away in the evening. I know he will be fine in God's hands. I am going to add a tagboard after I blogged.

Peter Pan means, the boy that never grows.

Only hope: Tinkerbell for love.

Please don't cry for Peter Pan. He'll be happier with God in Heaven.

YI Love You, Peter.Y

Yours truly,

fara.

Gardens, Peter Pan & the girls.

2006-10-17T00:53:00.000+08:00

2006-10-16T14:21:00.000+08:00

Today, I shall bring Peter Pan to the Vet. His ears got bitten by(only God knows) what. Wish me & Peter Pan luck!

You know. I'm super glued to Tamatown. Pepe or Pepetchi is a BIG girl now! Yay! She wakes me up at 8a.m everyday for breakfast. And at noon, for lunch. My little baby. Ohh. I love Pepe!! Now, I have many more pets and many more tears(hope not!) and responsibilities. Thanked God I don't have to clean Pepe's poopies for real. It's just a button away. (:

Today.....

2006-10-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

I guess pictures can tell its story. Too lazy to type out. Bebe's staying over. So I'd rather spend more time with her. She's happy with her ipod video, I've got my tamagotchi, PEPE and bebe and I got the same pair of birkies. (:

PS: Anyone who got tamagotchi after me is a COPY CAT! Stupid girls. Kept copying whatever I do or have. Anyone who has the same pair of birkies is also a COPY CAT!

Goodnight.

Quizes!

2006-10-13T14:58:00.000+08:00

I'm so bored that I decided to do some quizes for a while. How true.. Check this out.

Your True Birth Month Is March

Moody

Secretive

Revengeful

Trustworthy

Affectionate

Loves traveling

Loves attention

Shy and reserved

Musically talented

Loves home decor

Not easily angered

Sensitive to others

Loves special things

Attractive personality

Loves to serve others

Loves peace and serenity

Observant and assess others

Loves to dream and fantasize

Appreciative and returns kindness

Hasty decisions in choosing partners

Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic

What's Your True Birth Month?

My birthday is 6th of March.

You Are 0% Extrovert, 100% Introvert

You avoid people at all costs

You aren't one for social interaction

And you limit your interaction to a select few

Thank God for self checkout!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

Your Ideal Pet is a Cat

You're both aloof, introverted, and moody.

And your friends secretly wish that you were declawed!

What's Your Ideal Pet?

I've got two rabbits though. Alright. Time to go out and have fun.

Good Lord. Desperate for attention.

2006-10-13T14:10:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone.

I'm not enjoying this holiday. Apart from getting a new cumputer, nothing much to update abtt. Actually my holiday is as dead as a sick cow. What a description.

Anyway, hurray! Finally I've got my new computer. It is much faster than the previous one. DUH! The old one took 6 mins just to go to the desktop after switching it on. HOW SLOW? Sigh. I miss tanning and going out to have fun. I can't tan because firstly I'm lazy and secondly I can't. I must get Islander Card by this weekend. So that I can go in and out of Sentosa anytime I want.

And so, today I told bebe that I'll be getting her ipod video as I promised but superstitious her, she said I can't get it way before her birthday because it'll shorten her life. And I said to her,"okay. Good." Alright. So after 3p.m., I'll get my bum out of the house and head to town to buy it for her. Mommy left me alone at home thinking that we're going to bake cake. *faints* I woke up wondering where she is.

Okay. I've got 1/2 an hour more to go. SIGH! I'm so BORED!

No KISSES.

We're back!

2006-10-12T19:16:00.000+08:00

Greetings from Rara.

Peekaboo! Yes, I'm back with bebe. Decided to go on public because I want the whole world to know that I love her.

Love and kisses. MUACKS!

I Y BEBE!

To: You

2006-10-08T02:53:00.000+08:00

YOU'VE

GOT

MAIL

SO, GO CHECK IT.

2006-10-08T01:58:00.000+08:00

FUCK.

I just feel like saying that. I just think you'll feel better after screaming this out.

No offence. I'm just too tired to cry. So I just feel like screaming this out though no one can hear me.

I wonder how much Cinderella suffered before having a happy ending.
Or how the prince Charming tried he's best battling against the dragon just to save sleeping beauty up there in the tower.

_______________________________________

It all started off well but something or someone had to trigger it.
Maybe it's true. Every 50 dollars note you found, you lose another hundred.
The moral is not to pick up the note thinking that luck is on your side..
Truth is, it is not.
I'm so aware and skeptical about things. Hoping for no mistakes to be made.
Am I suppose to go through this? What's the lesson behind it?
I guess I should stay away from home as often as possible.
Stay in Kerrisdale so that we don't have to see each other so often and quarrel.
I guess I've already planned it. Even if I'm home, stay offline like I did just now.
What a good way to celebrate an important day[to me].
I like the way girls hanging up phone calls because I don't want to be accused of always being the one so reluctant to hang up. And in the end, the petty one or the one who caused trouble.
5 nights. Night by night. Kept having the same nightmare but I was unable to recall the incident. Fears. I'm just so scared. I guess I am over respecting myself. I know this is something all girls hate and I know I have to overcome it. I think I have to stop believing in dreams be it good or bad. Try to enjoy your day if possible. Doesn't matter who you did enjoy it with. That's all I can say.

Long entry for sure.

2006-09-30T06:28:00.000+08:00

I've not blogged for quite a no. of days. So, hello.
The truth was all out this morning.
Of course, I felt horrible that I had someone to call me and kajo me at 5a.m.
Honestly I was quite prepared for it.
I say, most bungs are hypocrites.

I am 16 and I am homosexual.

Just tell me, why you love me?
Why are you hiding your friendship with her?
Promises and compromises are bullshit.
Never stick to your words.
I bet everyone she complains to, thinks I'm possesive. Or perhaps jealous.
My GOD. I did ever tell her that losing her won't bring any great impact to my life.
She called me childish and ridiculous.
Now I know, she thinks it's annoying when I complained abt my friends.
How wonderful. I love you.
Those words are no longer valid long long time ago.
I don't believe you. In fact, I never.
I ought to understand her friendship with that girl. -well, that's what that girl thinks.
I seemed like I'm the worse monster ever being loved.

We were meant to be together
I never believe in it.
Now that all truth are out, we can end it all.
I didn't slp ever since we got home at 2a.m.
I didn't mean to but I had to and that's how I found out.
I was D most happiest person ever but those were virtual.
Maybe I shouldn't take away people from who they want to mix or be friends with.
She told me this morning that I should enjoy the people arnd me and don't bother abt love 'cause they've been constantly hurting me. She thought I was strong and firmed when i handled the Raoulz Shirt to-.

I was too nice.

Now, I've learnt my lesson. We only learn after we experience it. Don't know why must this happen to me when I'm trying to study for my Ns.
I'm too tired to cry. Cried out loud at the balcony but it was only papa who heard me.

I didn't want to resort to pills because I've grown from it.
It'd be best if we hadn't know each other from the start.

Good Morning Fellas

2006-09-23T12:00:00.000+08:00

It's noon now. I doubt I'll be going out to eat my life out though it's the start of fasting month tomorrow. [Thanks Whisky for reminding me] I think I'll be staying in bed. My gastric is getting worse. Feels like the last time I got attack. Appendix. I don't know if I should go out and eat since I've not eaten for 2 days. It's just unfinished mee goreng for breakfast yesterday and that was the only meal within 2 days.

Alright. Home then. I've been puking water out and now, air... gosh.. Super sick when I trying to study. What more can I ask for? My stomach is like going inwards and it's pretty scary. Shan't go on further. I should stay in bed. I should.. Or perhaps go Bras Basah to study? I've got tons of assignments to do and if I were to stay in bed, I'll be sleeping my day out.

23rd September sounds familiar.. I think it's someone's birthday. Hmm..I think I went to watch the Nokia Starlight Movie somewhere around this date. Alright. To whom who deserve,
Happy Birthday :]

Not a protagonist.

2006-09-22T20:35:00.000+08:00

"but I kept having that puking sensation.."

And so, my day went by just like that. I wanted to go town to buy my ipod video cover from Borders but was too sick to go. Wish Lolly could look after me. Okay, be realistic. It can never look after me. I tried to sleep but my gastric relapse. My head started spinning as soon as I got up. Since it's my tv time, I decided to watch tv hoping to have something that catches my eye. Hopes dashed. I was like a dead rat lying in my living room switching from channel to channel. Nope. Nothing did. The only thing that stopped me was spice girls the movie but I thought the movie was too colourful for me. Guys, I'm having a headache.

This is the weirdest gastric ever. I remember eating my meals regularly but sadly, I have to go through it again and unfortunately during my preparations for my N levels. I'd rather spend my whole day in bed but I kept having that puking sensation and so I have to stay in the living room 'cause it's the nearest relaxing room to the bathroom.

Okay, Totally Spice is over. My mistake. Wasn't Spice Girls. That's a female grp. It's 8.45p.m. and I'm still at home whining to myself. I don't really have the mood to play with the rabbits. My head is getting heavier.. Shall rest. Hopefully I get to slp. I have whined enough. Shit, feel like puking again. Controlling now to type out my last few words..

SOMEBODY SAVE ME please?

Back to basic.

2006-09-22T15:10:00.000+08:00

"I'm still contented though it was only the backview."

This is just some random thoughts. Anyway, I signed up friendster yday. I guess only a few knows the real reason. I decided to delete it. Since I ever told someone that I won't touch it. So I was a member once again for only >24hrs. I'm watching The Hills now. It was really sweet of Lauren's boyfriend to come over and brought LOTS of roses and wished Lauren Happy New Year. My morning was awesome. I had to msg Mich of course. So my first period was a huuhuuhaha.

I must must wake up earlier. Can't avoid to be late.

Let me count it..

2006-09-19T14:07:00.000+08:00

13 More days to N levels.

Bad hair day today? Who?

2006-09-18T17:38:00.000+08:00

Peekaboo readers,

I am very bored and tired. I wanted to study as soon as I reach home after having lunch with my schoolmates at MOS burg. Have you ever wonder what it stands for? Anyway, Fel, my Whisky[You can take your time searching for a name to call me] was so hyper. She calls me weird but more likely, she's the one. We were eating our meals silently and she was trying to fine ways to break the silence. Anyway Whisky, I miss Lolly and I might want to call Peter Pan, Lolly if it's a girl. HAHA. I can't wait for my papers to be over because Fara wants to buy Actionsampler Lomo. Hurray.

Everybody's changing..

Peter Pan :]

2006-09-13T19:06:00.000+08:00

PETER PAN.

Date of purchase: 11 Sept 2006

I decided to blog about Peter Pan since I'm much better.

TADA. This is Peter Pan. It is only two months old and I suspect he is a boy. As you can see, we can only tell its gender when it is 3 months old. I think I did mention about this last time.

The Baby Peter and Big sister Tinky who is 3 months old on the 7th of Sept.

They love each other. They really do although different breed.

"Hush my darling.. Don't fear my darling.." Peter's so adorable when he is lying against Tinkerbell.

"What's our future going to be like? More carrots from our Owner??....."

"Come, let me help you clean your back.."

He loves straws..

Upclose..

Of course, I canNOT forget the love of my life. The big sister Tinkerbell who is so big and heavy and teaches Peter Pan how to pee at one corner and how to behave. I'm serious. Believe it or not but Tinkerbell puts Peter Pan to sleep and ever since Peter Pan step into the cage, his behaviour is much better.

Sweet dreams Peter Pan...
I still love Tinkerbell for sure. Peter Pan runs around the house while Tinkerbell lie down on the carpet and watch tv.

I gave them a bath and it so hard to bath that little one. Kept running around the bathroom. My hands were wet. Or else, I'd definitely take pics of him. As for Tinkerbell, she stands still and let me do my job. I could even soap and clean her paws.

The end.

Fel, I've updated your birthday photos. :]

The Lomos.

2006-09-13T14:48:00.000+08:00

Oh Oh.. Forgot to update this. This is taken on the.... Anyway, it was the day where Fel and I had our wished granted. THE LOMOs. Haha. This is of course to disturb Becca. WHAHAHA. Becca, I'm waiting to see what you're going to tag me. HEHE.

Fel felt SHIOK.

Felicia's camera.

My camera. I wanted colorsplash and holga. And guess what? They have two-in-one. HEHE.The new edition. Muacks. I love, love..

THEE ENDD.

Newbie.

2006-09-12T14:16:00.000+08:00

I wanted to intro and post pic of my new rabbit. Oh fuck. What my rabbit??
I was trying to transfer my pictures but I stopped when I visited her blog.
I think I'm starting to ignore her.
Anyway, that thing is called Peter Pan.
Perhaps I might want to blog about him when I happier.
I might just want to return it.
I don't want it anymore.
Fuck. I don't feel like blogging at all.
ALL THANKS TO HER.
I rushed home to see the bunnies and decided to go online to charge my ipod and share my news to everyone online but you just had to spoil it.
It was happening and all but it all ended at 2.06p.m.
Well, she'd probably be online since I'm going to ignore and off my phone.

Okay. The trying-to-be-happy-me.

School was alright but thanks to Mr Singh, he made that bimbotic Miss Tan change everyone's sitting position. And guess who sat beside me? ChinaBOY.
Smelly of course. What else are they known for?
See, I'm definitely not happy. Simply can't think of any happy moments today.
Mathematics was boring as usual with Mr Ko. And english was oh so boring.

***k. Spoilt my mood.
I am THIS CLOSE to end it.
Or perhaps I should.
You've just made me a step closer to disliking you. Thank you if that's what you want.

I'm sorry fel. Can't send your birthday photos. Seriously....

FUCKING HELL NO MOOD. FUCK.

FUCK.

FUCKING HELL NO KISSES FOR TODAY.

When you're someone's favourite.

2006-09-06T09:43:00.000+08:00

HELLO.

*note: pretty long entry

Phew, phew, phew.. When I logged in blogger, I see Jean updated her blog yesterday.
I don't really have to read it 'cause I think I can predict her content.
About social studies N' level exam, yesterday.
As for me, I'm lucky bucky.
Everyone was shocked. I have to thank Von for the tips.
She told me that all SJC girls are studying health.
And I took the risk. I told Mr Arman about it and he told me to go for it.
And guess what??
The 3 unexpected qns are, Merger and Separation which came out last year[unexpected right?], Diplomacy and Deterrence[we all know that] and Health Care and Services.
Phew. Aren't Mua Lucky?
Most people studied chapter 3. That Sri L thinggy.

Anyway, I went back to Kerrisdale to for dinner.
You know.. this part is going to be the longest part ever.

When you're someone's favourite.

This reminds me of you being you granny's boy/girl.
When she invites you for dinner, she'll feed you all sort of food that she thinks it's your favourite.

Yesterday, I went to Kerrisdale as Uncle Donald would be cooking for me dinner.
I felt touched and of course I rushed there because I won't want to be late.
When I entered the house, I see all plates and cutleries in position.
Uncle Donald cooked Steak for me. Not the normal size that you'll see in Billy Bombers.
It is about 12cm wide and 7cm long. There were a few toppings on the steak.
I saw rosemary[to fragrant it], sliced onions[to spice up the taste] and sliced mushrooms[my favourite] decorated on top of the steak.
And 10 o'clock from the plate, there is a bowl of salad and on the right hand corner of the table mat, there's a glass of orange juice.
I was pretty pleasant with the surprise but all these emotions ended when I saw a piece of toasted bread. To be exact, raisin bread.
It was lightly buttered and I appreciate it.
But I HATE RAISINS.
I HATE ANYTHING BLACK, DARK COLOURED AND EDIBLE.
I HATE RAISINS, PRUNES, RED DATES AND ALL THOSE SOUR DRIED STUFFS.
And worse of all, he was watching me eating.
I cleared everything and came down to this last piece of bread. The raisin bread.
He told me that it is my favourite and I didn't have the heart to tell him that I hate it because he walked all the way to Shell petrol station across the road to buy it just for me.

After clearing my food, he took my other plates and went to the back to wash it.
I have to finish up this piece.
I had to use my fingers to DIG OUT the raisins and hide it in the tissues.
MY FINGERS GUYS. Yucks. That slimy feeling.
Just before he came back to the table, I took my last bite and ran to the kitchen to dispose the disgusting raisins.

Well, I thought it's the end but I had raisins bread for breakfast just now.
Super nightmare.

Felly, my slut. Will upload your birthday photo soon. My card reader is with my sister. Soon k? Yay.. 5 more hrs to see you and we can go fly high. 'Cause we're buying our LOMO.
Sorry guys abt the long entry. I had to blog abt the raisins nightmare.

Phew..

2006-09-05T12:58:00.000+08:00

Okay. Looking at the time now, I should be heading to school.
But I've decided to blog for awhile since I'm having my break.
Social Studies paper will be starting at 2 p.m.
WTH? It's already 1 p.m.
I've been memorising since morning that I think I can do it.
I took the risk of not studying diplomacy and deterrence when I know it's a for sure-will-come-out topic.
Instead, I studied for Health care and services and chapter 3. The whole of chapter 3. That Sri Lanka and N. Ireland. HAHA. That's my forte.
Health care and services is only half of chapter 1.
The other half is education which is super long-winded.
So I'll be so dead if the three qns are chapter 5, Diplo And Deterr and Edu of chapter 1 for section B.
See, I'm so not good at these.
Dead right?
Well, I'm just going to try my best. Wonder how I pass the rest of my Social Stu. paper.
And worse of all, high hopes from Mr Arman.
Ayeee.. All I can say is, God Bless Me Please.

Hurray. I'm going to get lomo tmr. Fel, you better not cancel our plan.
Alright. Running late for school.
Bye. Bye.

And so I have you..

2006-09-01T13:23:00.000+08:00

It was Fel's birthday that I realised the importance of keeping your friendship strong.

Happy Belated Birthday my dear friend, Felicia.

The most recent happening event is the celebration of Fel's birthday.
I thought we were good actors but when it comes to Felicia, at times on such days, we just can't make it.
Friends come and go..
Some stay as long as they can.
But I wish everyone could stay together.

Okay. I'm going to start mugging for my CH paper this Tuesday. Goodbye.

LLL kiss[es]

Sick of Love.

2006-08-23T16:26:00.000+08:00

Dear Tinkerbell,
I got back almost all of my papers today. Nuh ah.. Definitely unhappy. Six points at a moment. Could have gotten five. Anyway, would have done better if I put in lots of effort. Honestly I didn't really study for most of them. Okay. Thats for school.

Is it so hard?
Fading as days goes by..
Nothing lasts forever
Skeptical and unable to believe..

2006-08-16T19:54:00.000+08:00

Instant karma.

I wish you happiness.

Doing things that you want to do.

2006-08-16T18:09:00.000+08:00

Have you ever asked yourself what is it that you really want?
Are you able to do what you want?
Are you regreting for doing things that you actually don't want?
What women want, really?

I tell you what I want..

I want a simple life with no complications. Simple and free.
So that I don't have to put up with anything.
Why bother torturing yourself?
Do what you feel its right to do.
We are all different.
Unable to click is common.

No food for 20hours and still surviving..

Once bitten, twice its shy.

Nope. No kiss[es]

2006-08-16T17:37:00.000+08:00

Find your own pose!

I thought I could copy the meaning to it. Ohwells.. Can't seem to do so.. Let me see, my body is still working though I've not eaten. I'll see how long can it go.. Whee..

I'm going to study my chemistry. Goodbye.

Ni wonder?

2006-08-15T15:44:00.000+08:00

Fel's the cutest korean girl ever.
"Ooh. Ni wonder la. I thought...."

Ni wonder?

Then when I caught her, she said," Correct what. Ni wonder..."

"No Fel. Its no wonder."

"Ya! haha."

Haha. It was fun and all walking home with them. Looking forward to this weekend. Don't know why but yupps. Why not? Its the weekend! I cut my own hair out of stress. Well, the comments made by my fellow mates were not as bad as I thought it would be. Its bangs guys! I'm just waiting for my hair to grow. So that I'll look better with bangs. Jean said it was a total new look. I just realised that this year is my hairstyle year. Cut the types of hairstyle that I've long for. Last few months was the slope hair style. This month, the cannot-not-make-i-bangs. haha. Waiting for free time to alter the back. Kinda lazy to post pictures because I'm in the middle of my exams.

Did you see the N70?? UBER SEXY. Its purple. Please let me feel the phone if you happen to own one. hehe.

Hair grow hair. GROW!

Many, many kiss[es]

Baby Tinkerbell

2006-08-10T15:01:00.000+08:00

Its after National Day. Yay. No school for me. But nope, its not good for me because I'd probably spent my day with baby tink and computer. I've got Mt paper tmr and I'm still sitting here facing the monitor screen. Today is just another day... Feeling heaty and all. I think I need more vitamins to boost my energy. Feeling rather weak lately. Currently addicted to Bean Curd from S'goon Garden Chomp Chomp. Hmmm.. I think I'll drop by for hokkien mee and end my day off at Happy Daze with Honey Lime. :]

2006-08-08T17:08:00.000+08:00

It is called Tinkerbell.

Two months old.

I still can't belive that I bought a bunny. Anyway, its a baby. So young that we can't tell the gender until its 3 months old. So meanwhile, sticking to Tinkerbell. If its a boy, will be called Roo. I don't have to buy tamagotchi since I have tinkb now. YAY.

Appear offline.

2006-08-03T15:13:00.000+08:00

Thanks G.

Things won't be the same anymore when you're leaving.

Appreciated.

I'm sorry to make you read between the lines.

But surprised to know that you understand w/o me giving any clue.

Your predictions were right.

I don't know how to save money.

Somehow or rather, though we exchanged only a few lines, I could feel something.

Those few words of urs put me to think.

I started to reflect on my way home.

There's something about myself that is not right.

Extreme person he said.

Rather quite true.

That statement made me think.

Thanks.

I owe myself plenty of sleep.

Somedays, I go blank in class due to the lack of slp.

Somedays.. Only an hour of slp and out to school.

Just gotta endure and like what- said.

If you say life's hard, then it'll never be easy.

__________________________________________________

Thought this song is nice. -Paris Hilton, You don't see me.

This is the place where I sit

This is the part where

I love you too much

Is this as hard as it gets?

'Cause I'm getting tired

Of pretending I'm tough

I'm here if you want me

I'm yours, you can hold me

I'm empty and taken and

Tumbling and breakin'

''Cause you don't see me

And you don't need me

And you don't love me

The way I wish you would

The way I know you could

no kisses.

Goodbye.

Breathe.. Just breathe.

2006-07-31T23:27:00.000+08:00

Honestly, I may look like I'm not stress. But truth is, I AM.
So I tell you what. Stay away from me if you're going to ask stupid qns.
Spare me if you're going to tell things that I don't need to know.
Don't irritate me by not answering to my qns.
If low esteem, don't bring down others.
Everyone has problems.

Next topic: . The person beside you plays a big role in a picture.

Doing this for my dearest friend, Sam. Smile.

Whenever you take a picture, have you ever wonder who's beside you?
Is he/she your lover? Or, was your lover? Misconception.
Don't provoke the present neither the future.

PS: Boyfriend of hers, get this straight. Why put that girl who was involved?

Don't get others the wrong idea. Unpleasant you know. Silence may be keep quite sometime but not for long. It was after ______ that you put it. You know??

Social studies is this Friday.
Ready? Certainly not.
Diplomacy and Deterrence. Nope, I've not memorise them.
Today is the only day that I'll be blogging for this week.

It's all the same reason..

LLLkiss[es]

Men? Shoo.. Go Away.

2006-07-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

I, Farawati can no longer stand MEN.
I think I've written an entry about men before.
Yes, indeed. Another one perhaps might satisfy my needs.
All day long, Winning Eleven on Tv.
Did I get my space? No.
Simply selfish.
Cheering at stupid fake men scoring.
Disturbing the others.
And somehow or rather, they've got a gullible lady to cheer for the winning team. Oh wait. Winning idiot. And she's my sister, Sal.
Cheer for what?
So annoyed that I chased them all away.

All I need is some peace.

My dentist is M-A-D man.
He said that I cannot put on braces because, after I take out my braces, I'll have to wear retainers for all my life.

HELLO? It's only for like what? 8hrs a day. Not forever.
To begin with, why did Dr Joseph send me to see him to put on Braces??
How many people have worn braces?? Crazy.
We're looking for a better dentist.
See, this stupid Dr Heng is a MAN.

LLLKiss[es]

So long Mr Lim Kim San.

2006-07-22T20:54:00.000+08:00

Well, I wanted to go to his funeral wake.
But was very lazy.
So I've decided to indulge at home with tv on my entertainment.

See, if I go, I would be able to meet LKY and ask him to get for me the N' level qns. haha.
The president would be there and all.
But what to wear??
So home shall it be.

For Felicia: Tell Janice to get a life. Poor darls. Kept complaining about her the whole day. I want her blog add. HAHA. TAG HER about mosh.

LL LL LL Kiss[es]

Still salvaging.. Pooh.

2006-07-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

Today is definitely not a good day for me.
I didn't take my oral today cause I wanted to go home with Felicia and Jean and also my throat was still horrible.
Hasren was like, "please don't take your oral today. You'll lose marks."
Anyway, I decided to take a nap at 3 when revathi kept calling cause she wanted to come over.
I'm sorry. Was too tired.
Then I woke up at 8p.m. I don't need to sleep the whole night alr. HAHA.

My eyes are getting worse.
It was terrible when I started having my sore throat.
But it got worse.
My eyes were like as if I've not slept for days.
And they are quite swollen.
I'ev got no mood to do anything.
No pointing.
It's still the same.

Many theories for curing of sore throat.
But which really works??
I need hep now.
Or else, I'm going blind.
Shit..

LLL Kiss[es]

Salvage outburst.

2006-07-19T18:39:00.000+08:00

It was suppose to be my ML oral today.
But I didn't take it.
All thanks to my soreeeeeeeeeeeeeee throat. hehe.
It was horrible.
Anway, the testers were really kind.
They told me to come on Friday instead of tomorrow because my throat won't get any better by tomorrow.
Anyway, my day ended off well.
Thanks to Amaliah. She called me and wanted to go home together. But we decided to meet up with Felicia and Revathi.
Oh, HURRAY. A day out tgt with the four of us.
The last time was what? Last year???
Thank you so much guys.

FELICIA. STOP TEASING MY VOICE. HAHA. I LOVE YOU.

VOTE FOR GAYLE.

LLL LLL L Kiss[es]

New Skin.

2006-07-18T19:13:00.000+08:00

PEEKABOO.

Yes, yes.. New blogskin again.
My throat was horrible and all.
Everyone could tell that I'm not feeling well.
Thanks Jeremy for the strepsils and mineral.

Played floorball.
HAHA. Was in the sportman team.
With Gordon, the school captain of the bball team and Tin Tin[Justin], school soccer jock in my team.
Was hilarious when I talked to Wathann to distract in for a goal.
Anyway, it was all good and it was even better when Mr. Lee treating us drinks to end it.

Aiye.. I've not seen.... for days.
Fine. It's not reachable.

Can you feel the love?

LLL kiss[es]

2006-07-17T19:19:00.000+08:00

At first, I thought it was quite bitchy. Then.. recently I got hooked to her song.

Here's the chorus. You're going to hear more of me singing this in class.

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine
I can make it nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Maybe I'm perfect for you

Ohh, ohh, ohh

Fireworks. I thought I might want to share with all of you.

The artistic shot. But I don't think it's any nice.

2006-07-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

Last night, I had the weirdest dream.
Some helium balloon with a cardboard saying, "Will you be my girlfriend?'' outside my window from the 28th floor.
Then I actually walked to the window to see but by then, I was awake.
When I woke up, it was all a dream.
Didn't really get to see who was it.

Anyway, to those who are wooing, here's a new idea.
Get about 4 to 10 helium balloons and hang a huge cardboard wishing your loved ones.
Then make sure your string is long enough for you to be able to hold it and for it to be right outside her window.
I'm sure they'll love it.

Since, I've alr blogged about, it will not happen to me. So.. Yeah. Forget about it.

2006-07-16T16:44:00.000+08:00

you can skip this entry. Full of crap. Long-winded.

Bad Day.

I can feel it. It's over.

Was down with high fever last night with 38.6 degree celsius.
But who's was there?
No one.
Was shivering in bed crying out.
Depressed.
No one knows that I'm sick.
Just no one...
Anyway, it doesn't make any difference.

Anyway, to cheer myself up, I bought a camera for myself.
Nikon Coolpix. The one on advertisment for S'pore Idol.
Was thinking between Canon and Nikon. Ohwells..

Bought Raoul shirt for her since her IA is starting soon.
I was feeling very weird when I entered.
Not that it's my first time entering. Entered lots of times but it's my first time buying a men's wear.
Thanked God the guy who served me was a gay.
So I told him that I'm getting it for my gf.
So it wasn't so bad.
We're all homos.
There's no size of the one she wanted.
So i choosed the closest one.
New arrival. Hot selling. According to him.
I was wondering what's her size.
So he told me to try on the shirt.
I was the only girl in the dressing room lah.
Then, I went to cK to get a boxer for her first day job too.
Just hope she liked them all.

After that, I went to FCUK to get myself another t-shirt.
So Hurray... ]: I've got two fcuk shirts. Big deal ah..

I don't know why I bought it but I feel that I should give her presents for her IA.
It's just to support her.
Anyway, we're not talking anymore.
Probably she's fed up with me.

Hey Ho.. The gay's name Haikel and his boyfriend works at Kenzo.
Both working at Paragon.
So we exchanged no. and if I want to get any branded goods, he can get for me some discount.

Like Guess, Fox, Gucci and stuff.

I just hope you liked it.
Don't worry. I won't buy any more presents or perhaps,

the time when I pass you the presents,

it would be the last time you would see me.
Take care and all the best for your IA.
Don't have to thank me.
You did more than I have.

Just do your best for your IA.

I hope I can move on with my life.
Looking forward to a better future.
I think.. I'm talking nonsense. Ignore me.

Sometimes I wonder... Am I regretting?
She's probably moving on and hate me.
Just look at her tone of message just now around 4plus.

I just want to stay in bed. My headache is killing me.

Goodbye..

Money can't buy happiness neither Love

Although I bought lots of things still..

L Kiss[es]

2006-07-14T17:06:00.000+08:00

Alright. Pretty bored and all I'm asking for is to set in bed with Ben and Jerry's.
Sad to say, Mobil's mini mart is under construction. Pooh.
Oh wells, I miss Masha Masha Mashmellow.
I miss Cherry Garcia.
I miss Strawberry ChesseCake.

Sleep another house. So won't be online for.... A NIGHT. KAKAKA.
Might be watching BayBeats with Fel and Al.
Alright, so long everyone.

Still Zero Kiss[es]

2006-07-14T16:01:00.000+08:00

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2006-07-14T15:39:00.000+08:00

Your True Love Is a Pisces

Why you'll love a Pisces:

Selfless and intuitive, you are perfect for a Pisces that lives to love you.

You're sensitive enough to appreciate and explore the deep emotions of a Pisces.

Why a Pisces will love you:

You're generous and totally giving in relationships, something Pisces demands.

You are also dreamy enough to get lost in fantasy with Pisces, but realistic enough to stay grounded.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

HILARIOUS. I'M A PISCES.

2006-07-14T13:50:00.000+08:00

It was nice of Jean to bring me some goodies to school for the past two days.
It was that seaweed thinggy. First, I got hooked.
Then I made Jean take a bite and she went to NTUC immediately to get the whole pack.

I went to watch Pirates of The Carribean yesterday.
I was awesome. Love Johnny Depp for his humors.
Olando Bloom, hot as usual.
Keira Knightley, sexy of course.
Ahhh... I love the movie though I fell asleep halfway during the first movie but the second movie is much better.
No wonder the trailer is playing on every channel.
GO WATCH IT.

Obviously can't wait for the 3rd movie to be release.

20 more days to Prelims.
1 hour per chapter.
No more shopping.
Start mugging everyone.

People will only remember the negative things about you more than otherwise.

0 kiss[es]

2006-07-11T20:59:00.000+08:00

Feel so guilty.
I didn't watch Ellen today.
Instead, I went to take pleasure in bed.
Sigh. I didn't get to see Ellen today.

PRAV, YOU'VE GOT PUNK'D.
HAHA. Planned by Jason and Me.

My diet routine is doing pretty well.

I think I'm becoming sick.

Throwing up whatever's inside.

It's so sad to see my pasta and carrots in the toilet bowl.

Funny. I didn't starve myself.

I'm just reducing the no. of food that goes in.

Ice Kacang. I want.....

LLLL Kiss[es]

2006-07-10T17:10:00.000+08:00

Many wonder why I enjoy watching that old lady in sneakers dancing with rock music.
IT'S ELLEN. Hello?

I'm still waiting. It's still not here.
It's coming but when??
The suspension is a killer.
It refuses to come when it's suppose to.
Do you what's going through me while waiting??
I'VE BEEN EATING.
GAINED FOUR KG.
HELLO? ITS FOUR.
that's why I've decided to go on a diet.
I've always been 40++ but now..

Thanks for the support who think its right.
Good food will only come if I deserve it as a reward.

I've planned it already.
This week is on all green diet.
Which is to pretend to be a cool vegetarian.
My diet starts from today and ends on the 6th of August.
And I'm suppose to lose 4kg by then.

Next week wil be all red diet.
I'm suppose to be a carnivore.
And excise the most on my 2nd week.
To tone my mucles.
Really tone it up.

I'm still waiting for my resident pass so that I can go to the gym almost everyday.
The secret to keep hunger away from you is to EAT BUBBLEGUMS.
It manipulates your mind.
You might think that you're eating but you are actually not. Muahaha.

So after watching Ellen Denegeres, I'm running down to the market to get healthy food for this week like YUMMY FRESH SALAD.
And hopefully to lose my appetite while preparing for my exams.
So everyone, this is a major issue in my life,
please give me your support by donating every green thing that is in your plate.

And if you donate,
I would like to say,

Thank You for donating.

LLL Kiss[es]

2006-07-05T16:01:00.000+08:00

My night was horrible. Could barely have a proper sleep.
Confused I guess.
Thanks girls for comforting me.
Lies may take place for I know she don't want me to get angry.
But why in the first place?
She may not admit now. Only God knows the truth.
If I reveal my tactics, Secrets would be kept as it is.
But it was psychic all along.

It was a dry, cold and numb night.
Sleepless night I had.
What is exactly true love?
Opinions from each one were much diff.
That all depends on your status.
Those who were with me and watch me smile and cry, understands the best.
I never promised anyone that I would stop taking pills. But it was uncontrollable.
I cried out in pain. Who could hear me?
My stomach was aching the whole night.
Felt like gastric flu.

Confused. What do I really want in life?
Soul after soul.
Hurt by me.
I needed help.
Unknowingly use money to solve everything.
Used shopping and spend hundreds per week to take my mind off.

When I needed someone, no one was there by my side to comfort me.

Screaming out, crying in pain.
Tears continue to roll on and on..
Why weren't you there?
You were so cold.
Was truly disappointed.
You think you can lie but not to me.

Feeling much better I guess.
At least
LL Kiss[es]

I'm going to Mac, Kovan to study. After watch Ellen..

2006-07-04T20:36:00.000+08:00

End of the day.
And so I've got another entry to write.
Feeling so soreful.
Upset over everything.
Though it's been 2 months, things are still the way it is.
I feel so shit for ending it yday for I know that's not what I want.
Oh God. Please.. Help me.

I'm gg to meet Aaron's band this Friday.

So am I suppose to acc you to church this Sunday?
Who's gg to motivate me?
Who's gg to acc me or be there when I needed someone?
Down with 8 pills tonight.

L Kiss[es]

2006-07-04T17:47:00.000+08:00

Gosh, seemed so hard to believe you.
I'm not sure but whatever it is, it doesn't matter.
you said you were alone that night at ecp but from what I learnt, you were with that girl.
It doesn't matter anymore to me but I can't believe you lied to me.
My last goodbye.

See, I'm so not going to get near anyone. I'm glad I jet her today.
Felicia was laughing behind that bowl of macaroni.
Should have done the worse.

For now, I'm living my life all by myself.
Selfish you can call it.
One day, sooner or later it'll happen.
I rather go gaga over Ellen and don't get hurt than to fall for you.

You could have just say the truth.

"No, I was alone." I knew it was a lie.

Anyone have season of Ylove song?

2006-07-04T16:59:00.000+08:00

It was my English GCE N Level Oral today.

Things were not as bad as I thought.
I think everything went pretty smoothly.
Quite satisfied or rather glad I made it through.
I was falling asleep due to the lack of sleep while waiting.
Worse news of the day is that I ate TWO BOWLS of Mee Soto.
Anyway, HURRAY. Mdm Chua can't bark me for oral essays.

OH MY GOD. WATCHING Y Ellen NOW.
ON FIVE AT FIVE.
TALK TO YOU LATER.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.....

2006-07-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

FIRST DENTAL CHECK-UP
My dentist reminds me of Natheniel.
I don't know why. Perhaps he looks like him and sounds like him.
Oh wells, no extraction of tooth. So i can put on braces on the 27th.
After all my oral. Putting it for only 1 year.
He said if I don't put on now, one of my tooth will rotate.
Anyway, i've got to go Heeren to get an X-ray. So troublesome.

I watch ELLEN DEGENERES today at 5 on 5.
MY GOD. DID YOU KNOW THAT SHE'S A LESBIAN TOO?
oh wells, was admiring her.
Here's her details.

D.O.B: 26 January 1958 that makes her 48 this year.
She's a super mixed blood.
Is of French (paternal grandfather), Irish, English and German descent.
Can't seem to upload her photos. So, i've got the links for you to check out.
http://www.imdb.com/gallery/granitz/3592/EllenDegen_Caulf_5988510_400.jpg?path=pgallery&path_key=DeGeneres,%20Ellen&seq=20

Ho.. Ho.. I'm in love. Feels good. I think I'll dream of her tonight.
I'm happy. First, I got extra allowance, secondly, I'M IN LOVE.

LLLLL Kiss[es]

2006-07-02T13:10:00.000+08:00

Oh my god. Life's a torture. Sleeping my day off.
Feeling so lonely. See, that's the bad thing for being attached.
Now that I'm single, I'M NOT JUST FREE BUT TOO FREE THAT I'M TOO BORED.
No girlfriends to go out with. They are all busy. I'm so sad and miserable..
Uhh huhh.. France won yesterday.
Was a sad thing that Brazil didn't. Was totally hoping for it.
BUT PORTUGAL WON. YAY.
I knew it.

Anyway, I think I'm spending my whole day at home and then collect my photo later at five and head off to Kerrisdale to catch Veronica Mars at 6.
I don't feel like shopping because my allowance will come in at night only.
Wonder how much i can get tonight. Hoping for 300.
I want to buy more skirts and t-shirts.
See, I got 200 last week and all gone within a week.
But it's aint that bad because I bought a pair of shorts, two tops; one from Fox and another from Esprite and a denim skirt and I treated Amaliah at BakerzIn on Friday which so called costed me a bomb but that's alright.
It's not like we meet everyday.

Then today, SUPER BORED. I don't feel like solo shopping anymore. Don't feel like going out with my friends. Not that used to it. Oh God. Please Help Me.

LL Kiss[es].

well.. these kiss[es] tells me how's my day.

2006-06-29T20:04:00.000+08:00

Finally, no one knows only you.
So HELLO FELICIA and JEREMY.
Today was a disaster. I hate MALAY MEN.
What's with the SALAMOON? See, they are CHILDISH.

Tell that small girl to stop fantasizing about that boy and tell her to STOP SITTING WITH US.

oh ya, N' Level register no. for oral is EIGHT.

2006-06-25T16:55:00.000+08:00

". . . Being a teenager is definitely not easy ."

Life's short and yet we all want to achieve what we hoped for.
I bet everyone knows about it and probably hate me for hurting another soul.
Getting hurt is inevitable and being a teenager is definitely not easy.
We all have to face it. None of us wants to do such things.
Uncontrolled. All messed up. It's painful to clear it.
Because of one, two were hurt.

My life's so screwed but I don't want to continue life like this.
I want to live it. Not contacting anyone because I want time to heal all wounds.
I know i've been drinking and eating pills..
This is not going to last. It's not helping at all.
Will troubles and problems go away by drinking and taking pills?
No...
I want to study hard and get good grades for myself and for my mom.
Staying away from everyone. The more we all communicating, things won't get any better.
Doing this for the three of us.
Life's not all about love. I'm not worth any of your love.
I know I've hurt you both and all of the sudden I'm MIA.
It was irresponsible of me. But not talking to all of you is the only way to heal all wounds.
I've to keep my words.
Some people thought the compromise was bullshit.
I hate it when some people had to say that.

Today's the day of my holiday.
Normally, there's a lesson to learn from your holiday.
This holiday? Was a wake up call for me.
First week, slacked and most lessons were cancelled.
Didn't spend any time with my girlfriends.
Second week, slacked too. I went to MOS with Sel and met Paul twohill. Then on Sat, I went to YenC's party and to the Red house and got drunk. And I skipped my floorball match. I think.
Third week, clubbed and almost got caught up with some horny guy. So I ran away that night.
Then went to Zouk's underage party. Was my first time to underage and was told that we did the best couple dance and they would call us to dance for them for future events. Then met new friend, Danial who found me in friendster.
Fourth week, clubbed at DXO and got chased out by bouncers then 81. Was super high. Had BBQ with five bankers.

What more can I learn from this holiday?
I'm awake now. I've gotta start studying. My exams are coming. No more high life. Life's screwed up there and I'm not matured enough to go through all these shits. My mom's the only reason why I want to live my life up. I wonder why she never want to control me.
Is it because she knows I'll learn from lessons myself? Felt guilty when I don't go back to the other house. It's really horrible to have two houses. I don't know where to go.

I'm sorry girls. I wish you both love. Never stop loving. Love makes the world go round. It can be the most beautiful thing but always be prepaped for the worse as it can the most awful thing ever. When you got hurt, it doesn't mean it's the end of the journey. Everytime you get hurt, it is the beginning to everything. Learn and don't stop trying. If fate allows, she's meant for you. Don't let love affect your whole life. You've got to be strong and always remember that there are people who are much less fortunate than you. This is not the worse part of your life. You both are still young. May God bless you both and never stop loving someone new. Who knows? Love might come knocking on your door and she may be your true love. Take care.

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2006-06-24T22:38:00.000+08:00

Traumatised.
Tearing.

It was an awful night for me. Perhaps it is because I'm still virgin to all these. Shocked for sure. I had never encountered so many bouncers right in front of me. Anyway, I miss home for sure.

Having internal fever again. I just need someone right now. Have been crying since I started bathing. My life's so screwed. As I was on my way home, I saw ppl having family dinner. I wondered. What problems are they facing now.. For me, I'm just very lost. After that night, I begin to realise. This ain't lala land for me. It's reality. It's time for me to wake up. I finally realised that I'm very scared to face the real world. I'm so scared to see anyone.